Sorry I've Been Gone, But We Need to Talk...

It's me again, sorry I've been gone, but we need to talk...

First off I believe an apology is necessary for the excessive delay between this post and the last. Forgive me.

You ever find yourself drifting downwards when you're going through a flare up or a difficult time where you don't feel the inspiration, the desire to function or keep up on things....prime example - posting my thoughts more frequently.

I had a whole series I've been working on to share, but before I post those, I felt the need to first share my honest thoughts and why I've been absent as of late. The truth is, I've been struggling.....not just with my physical health, but also my mental health.

As we all know, the two typically go hand in hand, when your physical health takes a dive, it's common that your mental health will follow suit.

Thats where I've been....

You get tired of the constant struggle of trying to fight for quality in a day. My day or your day may look much different than most. Sometimes the most you can do is a set of dishes, take out the trash and that's it. Sometimes all you can do when feeling sick is brushing your teeth to feel like you at least accomplished something in a day, even if it feels so minuscule.

It's easy to encourage others when you feel good, but it's hard to be honest with others when you don't feel good. It's almost as if I forced this idea upon myself that if I feel good it's a good time to share and help others with their challenges. But when you don't feel good and it overcomes your mental health you feel like you're not good enough, or unqualified, to help others or make a difference.

The fact of the matter is, that honesty resonates deeply within us. I may not feel good, but I know this isn't going to be my constant. I will feel better again. It's just easy to fall into that emotional slump when it seems like you've slumped more "off days" in a row than "good days."

Make no mistake, I have the best support system and without Shelley and my family it would be easy to feel completely lost & defeated.

But I keep coming to this phrase I used to share with fellow Spoonies and it's this:

"When there's Pain there's an opportunity for Purpose waiting to arise."

I can't tell you how many times I've experienced moments or memories of pain and trying to figure out why is this happening?!

Then one day, you begin to share your story and relate with a person who's going through a tough time while suffering with a similar illness you've experienced, or are experiencing...and all of a sudden you realize that there's a healing that is felt in that moment.

There's that saying that says: "Pain is meant to be felt."

How true.

But the key is to be honest with yourself...be honest with those who love you & support you....be honest with those you one day hope to help.

If you're having a bad day, if you're feeling any sort of pain whether physically, mentally or both, be honest with how you feel , it's Ok to not be Ok sometimes...but know there's a purpose that's going to come out of this.

Whatever you're going through hang in there and know we're here for you. The purpose of Fork Knife and Spoonies is to help others, to make a difference, but also to be felt and helped as well. It's a two way road.

If you're hurting, if you're in pain, we're here for you. You're not alone. Don't give up! Your pain is felt but we will get through this together.

Thank you for letting me share...it's good to be back.

We've missed you, Spoonie family. We're still here. Always will be.

We're ALL in this together.

Much love,

~D & S~